Saturday, March 28, 2009

slumber land


I think God is trying to tell me something. Sometimes I feel that I am alright, I am content but little did I know, I am actually trying to hide those poignant feelings of sadness, for whatever reason.

I had a dream last night that I had to sing this song for a singing competition.

There's a hero if you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid of what you are.
There's an answer if you reach into your soul
and the sorrow that you know will melt away
And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.
So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you.


It's a long road when you face the world alone;
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold.
You can find love if you search within your self
and the emptiness you felt will disappear.
And then a hero comes along with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.
So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you.


Lord knows dreams are hard to follow,
But don't let anyone tear them away.
Just Hold on, there will be tomorrow,
In time you'll find the way.


God is great and it is a sign that I have to put everything aside and indulge in a prolific conversation with Him. God is great. He is aware (duh) that I always keep things to myself. God is great.

Friday, March 27, 2009

Its been a while...


Aku duduk keseorangan di bilik kecil yang telah aku diami selama 2 tahun. Di bilik ini lah aku mengejar cita-citaku dan menelaah pelajaran bertemankan nota dan buku pelajaran. Di bilik inilah aku mengharungi segala rintangan di kota metropolitan ini. Bilik ini juga yang menjadi saksi tangisan dan hilaian tawaku pada waktu malam di mana teman serumahku yang lain sedang diulit mimpi indah.

Aku ibaratkan hidup ini sebagai roda. Roda kepunyaan Tuhan yang maha kuasa dan aku tahu hidup ini penuh dengan rintangan dan onak duri. Aku tahu aku perlu harungi semua ini untuk berjaya dengan panduan-Nya. Aku tidak akan pernah mengeluh apabila aku terpaksa lalui halangan yang perit seperti yang ditentukan oleh-Nya. Aku akan tetap melemparkan senyuman kepada makhluk-makhluk Tuhan yang lain kerana bagiku, perasaan yang kotor harus disimpan sekemas-kemasnya di dalam hati. Jangan pernah menunjukkan perasaan yang dicetuskan oleh Iblis dan jangan pernah mengerutkan dahi apabila ditimpa musibah. Pengalaman adalah guru kehidupan.

Aku akan terus melangkah, berlari menentang arus dengan perasaan yang paling didambakan oleh makhluk tuhan yang lain.

-feequa-