slumber land

I think God is trying to tell me something. Sometimes I feel that I am alright, I am content but little did I know, I am actually trying to hide those poignant feelings of sadness, for whatever reason.

I had a dream last night that I had to sing this song for a singing competition.

There's a hero if you look inside your heart

You don't have to be afraid of what you are.

There's an answer if you reach into your soul

and the sorrow that you know will melt away

And then a hero comes along

with the strength to carry on

and you cast your fears aside

and you know you can survive.

So, when you feel like hope is gone

look inside you and be strong

and you'll finally see the truth

that a hero lies in you.

It's a long road when you face the world alone;

No one reaches out a hand for you to hold.

You can find love if you search within your self

and the emptiness you felt will disappear.

And then a hero comes along with the strength to carry on

and you cast your fears aside

and you know you can survive.

So, when you feel like hope is gone

look inside you and be strong

and you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you.

Lord knows dreams are hard to follow,

But don't let anyone tear them away.

Just Hold on, there will be tomorrow,

In time you'll find the way.

God is great and it is a sign that I have to put everything aside and indulge in a prolific conversation with Him. God is great. He is aware (duh) that I always keep things to myself. God is great.

Its been a while...

Aku duduk keseorangan di bilik kecil yang telah aku diami selama 2 tahun. Di bilik ini lah aku mengejar cita-citaku dan menelaah pelajaran bertemankan nota dan buku pelajaran. Di bilik inilah aku mengharungi segala rintangan di kota metropolitan ini. Bilik ini juga yang menjadi saksi tangisan dan hilaian tawaku pada waktu malam di mana teman serumahku yang lain sedang diulit mimpi indah.

Aku ibaratkan hidup ini sebagai roda. Roda kepunyaan Tuhan yang maha kuasa dan aku tahu hidup ini penuh dengan rintangan dan onak duri. Aku tahu aku perlu harungi semua ini untuk berjaya dengan panduan-Nya. Aku tidak akan pernah mengeluh apabila aku terpaksa lalui halangan yang perit seperti yang ditentukan oleh-Nya. Aku akan tetap melemparkan senyuman kepada makhluk-makhluk Tuhan yang lain kerana bagiku, perasaan yang kotor harus disimpan sekemas-kemasnya di dalam hati. Jangan pernah menunjukkan perasaan yang dicetuskan oleh Iblis dan jangan pernah mengerutkan dahi apabila ditimpa musibah. Pengalaman adalah guru kehidupan.

Aku akan terus melangkah, berlari menentang arus dengan perasaan yang paling didambakan oleh makhluk tuhan yang lain.

-feequa-

Vday

Lovely ambience and great company.Scrumptious food. Yummy dessert.

She listens to him as he talks about his crush. yes his crush and hers on their first date on Valentines day dinner.

Honesty is the best policy.

She had fun. He had fun. Her friends had fun. The cameramen and photographers had fun.

Great experience.

P/S-Where art thou, lady writer?

I wana go to the beach.

Its 0136 am. I am sick of reading Vandervell`s stupid tactic on how to avoid paying ad valorem tax. I think he is the culprit behind my (and the law of trusts students) high level of stress.

I am gonna have a night out with my 2 favourite lecturers and a close friend of mine. I cant wait. I need an entertainment. I had a dull and innefficient weekend. I hate weekends. Too much of trusts. Too much dwelling on Vandervells problem on his beneficial interests. Bloody idiot that fella.

I miss home. I miss my family. I miss my parents. I miss my 2 sisters. I miss my cat. I miss my room. I miss my bed. I miss homecook food.I miss my KK friends.

I have to bear with fast food, pollution, stress, messy room with papers and books around, coffee and biscuits since im broke, public transportations, sleeping late, having meaningful conversations with myself, being single and lonely etc etc.

I dont mind gaining extra kg.

Im gonna migrate. Im gonna shift to another region.

Danny Boome is hawt. Kill me.

Im so gonna go to UK to do my masters and start saving moolah from now on.

Also, to hunt for Danny Boome.

Guys who can cook turns me on.

Ps- Thanx Sai for the butterscotch bread.=)

Blessings in life.

I always look at the bright side whenever things went wrong.

I dont believe in having bad lucks in life.

Thanx to sharon n her bf for the chocolate and lovely dinner and nam yew for the valentines cookies.

Also, meaningful conversations with Uncle Hashim.

These small little things mean a lot to me.

Not forgetting wonderful friends around me.

*smiles*

Creep fascinates me.

When you were here before, Couldn't look you in the eye?

You're just like an angel, Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather

In a beautiful world

I wish I was special

You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep,

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doin' here?

I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,

I wanna have control

I want a perfect body

I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice when I'm not around

You're so fuckin' special

I wish I was special

But I'm a creep

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doin' here?

I don't belong here,

ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out again

She's running out

She runs runs runs runs...runs..

Whatever makes you happy

Whatever you want

You're so fuckin' special

I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doin' here?

I don't belong here

I don't belong here...